I have never been a let go. I am stubborn, persistent and I fight until the last atom of my strength is gone.
It took me so long to realize that sometimes it’s better to give up. And this is a story of people who ended up giving up on each other. It’s a story about me, you and all the other girls who need to pull themselves together and let go of someone who doesn’t want to fight for them.
I know it’s so hard to come to terms with the fact that he’s only part of your story. Looking back at all those wonderful memories, it feels like someone is ripping your heart out. I know everything we built together has fallen apart. It hurts.
I am the queen of this kingdom of the void. I reign surrounded by the ruins of our broken relationship that are left behind.
There is one thing I think you should know. I am not weak because I have decided to give up on someone who clearly no longer sees me next to him. I’m not weak because I decided I was tired of him putting me down. I am not weak because I put myself first.
Being able to let go of someone who has abandoned you is the most important part of the sad healing process after your breakup.
Letting go is so good. I can’t say I’m happy yet. But honestly, I am satisfied. After so many disappointments in life, I made myself proud. I know it takes time, but I also know that I will be the stronger version of myself.
Let’s stop fighting for guys who don’t see how beautiful and special we are. Please stop wasting our youth and our lives on those who are not worth it. It’s not silly to ask a guy who thinks you are the greatest thing that has ever happened to him. I’m not an idiot and neither are you. We deserve someone who cares so much.
I’m not a coward because now I refuse to lie to myself and say I can change it. I am still a full time fighter. I just decided to fight for other things in life. I’m not happy, not yet. But I want to fight for my happiness.
I feel your pain. I know he left you like a piece of broken glass on the floor. I was here. I’m here to tell you that you should never feel ashamed or guilty because you abandoned someone who didn’t think you were freaking out as amazing.
It is normal to be frustrated, sad, angry or anxious. It doesn’t mean that you are weak. No one said it would be easy.
Someday we will find that person who will be all we have ever needed. I am not a coward, but I prefer to wait for someone who is really worth fighting for. And I want to be able to reflect the best version of myself when I meet him.
I don’t want to be a lonely queen in this void realm, but my king will have to fight very difficult battles if he is to sit next to me. I promise it will be worth it.